Tuesday, April 14, 2009

The Good and The Bad

We had a wonderful Easter. Lots of food, fun with the family, and candy as far as the eyes can see.

I think I did well during Lent. We stayed on our tight budget sacrificing every way we could. I slowed down during prayer and made it a point to pray more. Now that lent is over and Easter has come and gone it is important to continue what I started during Lent.

I would like to work on my attitude. My life is so blessed and I could not think of any other way I would rather live, so why do I find myself in a bad mood with a bad attitude more often than I would like to be? Maybe it is because I am not the person I really want to be and the only way to become that person is to surrender to God.

When I was in Church during the Easter season I looked around and I saw the statues and the crucifix covered in black drapes, no flowers, and things were really somber. I felt scared as I thought this is how life would be with out our Lord in it, dark and draped in blackness. I thanked God for being in my life and I could not wait for Easter morning when the Church would be full of life again.

As I pondered my attitude it came to me that I am at my worst when I drape a black cloth over our Lord and try to take control myself. It is the times when I shut Him out, not intentionally, but it is when I let myself belong to the world and my desires more than belonging to Him.

I want to feel like Easter morning. I know this can't be possible all the time, but it is worth a try to make it happen most of the time.


Rae said...

Beautiful. I too want to have an Easter attitude. It should be easy since I am so blessed, but it is not.

Anonymous said...

I enjoyed reading this post. I haven't visited you in quite awhile because I got wrapped up in my "usual" blogs. My daughter reminded me that there's so many good ones. I'm glad I came back when I did. This was a great post and I feel much the way that you do. I'm truly blessed and I never want to forget!!

De Lly Dilettante said...

What you write about is so true. I get grumpy and mean when I realize that I'm not who God would want me to be. And then begins the vicious circle of me becoming nastier and nastier because I don't feel good myself. In times like these it's kind of hard to listen to God's voice.